allsmiles.

Today I had one of my best days ever. Despite the fact that I only got 4.5 hours of sleep.

I had stayed up the whole night before trying to write my 7 page paper and also study for my chemistry quiz and complete three homework assignments [yes, this is a direct result of procrastination]. So I didn't sleep until 5:30am. Then I woke up at 10:20. AH! My chemistry class starts at 10:30. So I got up without brushing my teeth or washing my face, got ready and went to class. I sat through lecture then took the quiz. I was so scared that I wouldn't understand anything on the quiz because I had such a hard time understanding it the night before. Fortunately, it was not as hard as I had expected. Then we got our tests back! Y E A H. I got a good grade :] and chemistry is not easy my friends.

Then I went back to my room to finish my paper. From the night before I had only typed four pages. But that was actually pretty good considering I had started my research and the actual writing of the paper at midnight. haha. It took me forever because I was running out of information to put in my paper. So it was like pulling teeth out for the next hour. FINALLY. I finished. Printed it out. Stapled it. Ran to class. I had actually skipped class to finish the paper. I got there as soon as it ended and I went in and turned the paper in. The class is fairly large so my super delayed entrance was not noticed. YAY. I finished. whew. That was a good feeling.

I was hungry because I hadn't eaten anything all day. Monica and I went to Eagle's Nest. I got a Chicken Caesar Sub sandwich. I had a good talk with Dimitri and Monica. Then left and had phone talk time with Alexander :}
That was fun. Ended up taking a one hour nap - if you know me, you'd know that I am not capable of taking a nap shorter than two hours. So when I woke up I had a headache. But it was all good :]

Went to the sub to make copies of mileage reimbersment slips. But the copy machine wasn't working. SO. I was heading back to the room. Got there. Hung out with the roomie. Then ended up driving to Diamond Plaza. ahahah. We are oyster soup and pork with bamboo shoots. Yum.

On our way back we saw the city lights from the top of the hill while driving! Beautiful.
Now I'm back in the room actually quite exhausted. But content.




As I was reading over my blog and realized that despite some unplanned things that happened during the day, I was still happy. ahahhaa. But I guess, I was just so happy about my test score and finishing my paper that the joy from that allowed me to overlook any of the bad things that happened today.

But all in all. God is G R E A T.

Pizookie!

So I'm browsing through a friend's pictures on facebook and I stumble upon a picture of a pizookie!!!! It's weird how my mouth got all watery and my desire for this appeared out of no where - all this stimulated by a picture! I wasn't even thinking about it before and now it's all I can think about! Hm. Then I wondered, is this how guys are? Because I do know for a fact that guys are more visual than girls are...yes. I never really understood that. I probably started thinking about that more after the movie last night that dealt a lot with sex trafficking. Well, it never ceases to amaze me just how different guys and girls are. God is so intense [because he created such complex creatures].

Well, I really really really want a pizookie now :)



hahaha. Now don't YOU want one too?! [it was bc of the picture huh?]

secretservice.

So tonight I went to watch Taken with Monica and Richard. Man, was it fun.
I highly recommend the movie. It deals with a lot of sex trafficking. It's actually kind of sick, but the movie is really really good. The three of us left the theater only talking about the movie...and reenacting all the scenes we liked best.

I was very happy after the movie, because I haven't seen one that good in the dollar theater with such good action since Wanted. YES. soooo gooood. Definitely a must watch.

It gets 5 stars from Leah :]

sleepydays.

SO UNPRODUCTIVE!
that's me.



FOCUS!
It seems that not all of us learn from our mistakes.

imlikeabird.

I wanna run around so fast and hard that I'm too exhausted to breathe evenly with my arms open wide and free then fall on the grass and roll around and stare into the deep blue sky and fall asleep with the warmth of the sun beaming on my face.

[who wants to join?]

My grammar is usually not like this. I detest bad grammar. Worst run-on sentence ever. But the run on sentence adds to the effect of my sentence :]

applebottomjeans.

So the other night I had the best almost-clubbing experience ever.

[10:30pm] So Monica, Ju, Tiffany, Ben, Richard and I all got into Nate's car and drove to Hollywood Blvd. It took about 15 to 20 minutes or so. Once we got there we made a couple of U-turns trying to find a place to park. We soon found an underground parking garage though. It's located under the mall. Pretty cool :] Well, once we got up to the street, we correctly guessed which direction we should head. That night, there was this event going on at the Chinese Theater. I have no idea what though. All I know is that there were a lot of people and cameras and lights and that part of the street was blocked. Probably some opening or award ceremony. Anyways, we finally found the club [Club Bang]. As we walked closer to the club, there were a bunch of people who were hanging about on the "balcony" of the club. They were all dressed in black-like hard metal rockers. We asked the bouncers if that was Club Bang. He said, "Yeah, but it's gothic night."

"OH." haha. So we headed back the direction we came. We saw some guys that were kind of following us looking for Club Bang. We told them that it was gothic night. They were disappointed. We told them we were gonna head down the street and look for another club. They said there was nothing that way...except for "flaming gay night." haha. SOOOO, we called our trusty friend Ruby. She advised us to go up to the top floor of the mall and find a club there. So we went back to the mall. The first set of stairs that led up were beautiful. It was like a grand staircase that you see in movies [that's the only way I know how to describe it]. Then we took the escalators. We went up and up and up...until at the last escalator up there was a sign blocking it. Apparently there was a special event that night and we couldn't go to that club. So we looked around and saw that there was another club on the level below [it was an open spaced mall]. So we headed down there and realized that the guys with us didn't fit the dress code to get in. They didn't allow sneakers or jackets and such. Basically the dress code was formal. So, Ju asked the bouncer about the club D-V8 [the one Ruby told us about]. He said that it was only open on Friday and Saturday nights-it was a Thursday night.

Apparently, we had chosen the wrong night to go clubbing :/

Well, that was my first attempt ever to go clubbing-and Richard's too. So we both had fun just walking around and staring at stuff/people. The other four however were trying hard to find a place to get their dance on. Richard and I didn't really know what we were missing out on so we had fun :]

After that we decided to head back to the car. We took the escalator down to the metro. The wind from the metro was blowing my hair like in Pocahontas :] ahha. Then I spread my arms and said, "Monica, HOLD ME!" She grabbed me and it was like a scene in Titanic. muahahha. yeah. We figured out that there was no way to the garage through the metro so we went back up to the street.

After that we found our way back to the garage and drove back to Biola. [1:00am]

All in all-it was a fun experience. Not exactly the same experience as clubbing, but still fun. Maybe I'll attempt it again one day. Maybe. I'm actually more curious now that I've been that close.

breakingfree.

So I've been having a dilemma roughly since my second semester at of college.

Am I supposed to be studying to be a doctor? Since I can remember, I've always dreamed of being a doctor. Oh, but not just any doctor, specifically a surgeon. My mom's co-workers would ask me what I wanted to be when I was older. "A ballerina or princess?" they would suggest. "No. A surgeon," I replied. So yes. My dream was to attend Stanford and achieve my goal this way. [Well, it seems I'm at Biola. But that's not the issue.]

Or does God want me to be a teacher and teach children whom I adore? Children bring me tons and tons of joy. The way they interact with you is so carefree. They are quick to judge, yes, but for some reason it's not as harsh. The often overlook your flaws and just have fun with you. I very much enjoy teaching the kids at my church.

So I've been asking a lot of people seeking for advice. Many say that they see me more of a teacher than a doctor. Probably because I am more creative and carefree than I am a science nerd. I've also spoken to my parents about it. They are not against me being a teacher. Unlike some Asian parents I've heard of, they wouldn't scold me for choosing a less extravagant career. However, they'd rather me make my decision soon that I won't waste money.

After speaking to an advisor in the School of Education at Biola, I quickly concluded that I do NOT want to be a teacher. Mainly because it'll take me longer than I want, and this is the first time EVER have I considered taking a different route other than Science. [seriously at least-I've mentioned wedding planning] I just had to get my motivation back.

Recently I've been spending a lot of time in the library by myself listening to Francis Chan podcasts [the internet there is fast]. One day, I found it difficult to listen to what he was preaching for some reason. So I wandered off to surf the internet. I was checking the HCC [health career club] folder on BUBBS and decided to check out the medschool links. I soon stumbled upon Doctor Diaries on Nova. It's basically a documentary [an old one] about Harvard med students and what they go through in med school. INTENSE.

But I like. YAY. I'm still gonna be a doctor. Not sure if I'm gonna be a surgeon, but definitely a doctor. Also, everytime I see a children's hospital, I get all excited and funny inside.

Sigh. I'm content now. Just got to work hard. O-Chem, Physics, Microbiology, Genetics, Cell & Molecular Biology HERE I COME! BAM!

p.s. Mustachio is for TZENG-MO-LING

babypop.

To Die For.

bambam.

She's cute. Reminds me of Emily Okada.
ahhh. i like her hair.

applesandbananas.

So I feel like my blog has been too serious lately.
Yes. It has.

Fun things that have happened these past couple of days:
1] Monica and I were at the Norton Simon Art Museum. We were walking around the garden outside and found a spot near the building where we could see our reflection. We decided to take jumping photos. So we jumped around for a while and then a lady who worked there opened the door and said, "You guys have to stop that," in a very stern tone. So we walked away.

2]"Toothpicks are good for tooth." -Mrs. Tzeng

3] Ate with Monica and parents at a deliciously healthy dumpling house.

4] I get to cook at Nate and Soon's apartment and crash there while they're on a 6-day hike!!!

5] Broke into Nate and Soon's apartment [we locked ourselves out].

6] Just realized that I haven't spent much time with anyone else besides Monica these past couple of days. [I miss Francis Chan-spent a day or two in the library by myself listening to his podcasts :]

tsisyoogyim.

It's hard. Always trying to please. Not just those around you.
Nor just those who expect so much of you.
But yourself as well.
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We often give our burdens to God in our prayers.
But do we really give them to Him?
And if we do, do we fully trust Him?
I think we make ourselves believe we do.
But in reality, we don't.
For if we did, we wouldn't worry about anything.
We wouldn't fear discomfort.
We wouldn't fear rejection.
We wouldn't fear humiliation.

Sleep. That's what I need.
Not physically, but mentally.
For now at least.
Generally, I don't think I think enough.
My mind is so limited.
I need to work on expanded my knowledge and vocabulary.

It's funny how no matter how much we have, we still want more.

Content. Humble. Patient.
I'm setting these as my goals.
I most likely won't ever achieve this goal.
But it's a good one to strive for, wouldn't you agree?

Spring Break.
Time to whip myself back on focus.

undeservinggift.

I have been going through many frustrations lately.
AHHH!
I don't understand people.
But not everyone is like me. I'm not like everyone else.

Frustration of one thing leads to frustration of another.
Humility, Lord. It's what the world needs to learn from You.



I am unworthy of God's love.
I am unworthy of Jesus' sacrifice.
I am unworthy of His forgiveness.

Yet He pours grace upon me.
Yet He pours mercy upon me.
Yet He still loves me more than I'll ever know.

[Monica slipped the other day because her leg was numb]

astir.

God of Justice, Saviour to all
Came to rescue the weak and the poor
Chose to serve and not be served

Jesus, You have called us
Freely we've received
Now freely we will give

We must go live to feed the hungry
Stand beside the broken
We must go
Stepping forward keep us from just singing
Move us into action
We must go

To act justly everyday
Loving mercy in everyway
Walking humbly before You God

You have shown us, what You require
Freely we've received
Now freely we will give

Fill us up and send us out
Fill us up and send us out
Fill us up and send us out Lord
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[I worked 6.5 extra hours this week]
[I ate Ethiopian food]
[I went to an African American church]
[God revealed to me one of my callings]
[GO JESUS!]