rapunzle.

grow hair grow. i want long beautiful hair. now. maybe asians have hair growing medicine....they have medicine for everything else.

i wish i was gorgeous too...but that's another story. grow hair grow.

hmong.pride.

So just recently learned that there are TONS of Hmong people in Southern China. In fact, there, they are called the Miao people. I was taken back at this. My whole life, I have only known of the Hmong people in Thailand and Laos. I have not known of any Hmong people that are not from Thailand nor Laos. I guess this is because all of those in Southern China do not have a great reason to migrate to the states as the Hmong in Thailand. Considering the history of the Hmong in Laos, it is understanding that it is more likely for the majority of the Hmong there have migrated than those in Southern China.
This new discovery has brought many questions to mind. If I do not even know my own culture and history then how are others supposed to know. I have found myself very frustrated lately because I am the only Hmong person at Biola. Every since I was little, I never had any problems with explaining who the Hmong people are because there were tons of them in our town. I would be surprised if no one has heard of them. However, now I'm surprised to find anyone who does know about the Hmong people. I have come to realize just how important the Hmong are. We really need to start a revolution and get to people to be aware of us. There are a lot of Hmong out there....we're just a minority.
So, I'm on a mission to be a good representative of the Hmong people. I hope I can do it well. Going back to my Hmong roots.

weirdandawkwardstage.

I all of a sudden feel alone. lonely. I told you it's not just international students, Melia.

those.people.

there are those whom surprise you. they have so much more depth than expected. it's so nice to find people like that. it generates fun and excitement. they are the people who you are super excited to see. they are the people who you make you laugh for eternity. they are the people who surprise you in every way. they are those who you care most about...even without knowing.

i love all my peeps. ahh...love those people.

madness.

I am so tired of him. What is wrong with him. I am so angry right now. I just want to scream and run and never stop. I want to run all the way to Redding and sock him in the face. So difficult. Why does he have to be so quiet about it. JUST TELL ME! omg. Why do you have to make me so mad? Why am I still worried about him? AH!!!!! forget forget forget. move on move on move on.

No matter how much I still love him, No matter how much I miss us being together, I know that I can't live like this. This is not going to be in my future. I better erase now or suffer. Time to fight.